This strikes me because I have a similar mental picture of Romana standing at the window and staring out at the remnants of Gallifrey, ravaged by war. I chose to give her Brax to talk to rather than the Doctor (who was MIA at the time) but the idea still stands. Whether or not ANY of it was her fault, it's her great moment of guilt. Millions of years... and Gallifrey falls on her watch.
I'm of two minds about the idea of her asking the Doctor to commit that final act. On the one hand, it says a lot about her and her willingness to do whatever it took. On the other, it rather makes it her fight and her decision, thereby absolving the Doctor of a fair amount of his guilt (and I'm a sucker for the guilt thing). He didn't have to make the call. The President herself made the decision - and it was her people, her call to make. I do like the idea of Narvin being the one there to support her in the last moments, though. It's... fitting, somehow.
Nice piece. :)
Author's Response: Calling it her \"greatest moment of guilt\" is...such an amazing quote. Because it\'s exactly that - it\'s the point at which everything she\'s ever fought for, everything she\'s ever thought about herself, comes tumbling down around her, and she has to face the fact that she had a hand in it. I liked giving her the Doctor because there\'s such a contrast between them. There was a line, that I deleted, that said something about how she\'d always thought it would be the Doctor who threw Gallifrey in to chaos. How she found it ironic that she - the more responsible one - was in fact responsible for the greatest catastrophe the universe had ever seen. Having Brax there would, equally, be a wonderful contrast. I\'d love to read that scene, if you ever write it. And I think...having Romana ask him to destroy Gallifrey doesn\'t absolve him of guilt. It\'s my headcanon that the plan is mostly his idea in the first place - that\'s why he\'s horrified when she mentions his leaving for one final time - and that he always considers it his choice. He could have refused - he probably wonders whether there could have been a better plan, a better way, a way that didn\'t involve the genocide of two entire species. No matter who asks him to do it...he makes the choice to comply, I think, and that\'s where the guilt comes from. The eternal rebel obeying orders. And WOW that\'s a lot of words. I loved your comment so much - thank you for making me think - and I\'m really glad you enjoyed the story!!!